Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts

24 April 2010

Type A and Plan B.

"We're called to be faithful to God even when it seems He hasn't been faithful to us. We're called to love Him even when we feel abandoned. We're called to look for Him even in the midst of the darkness. We're called to worship Him even through our tears."


Pete Wilson is the pastor of Crosspoint Church in Nashville, Tennessee. His blog, withoutwax.tv, is a place I visit frequently to be inspired and challenged. And it's where I learned about his first book, Plan B. I was honored to receive an advance reader's copy.


So, my original plan was to finish reading Plan B several weeks ago. I even blocked time on my calendar - “read Plan B, “ponder Plan B,” “review Plan B.” But it seems this Type A has had to move to her own Plan B, because I haven’t finished it yet.


Now, please don’t get the wrong idea - it’s not that I don’t want to read the book (trust me, I’ve got a stack of books that have been started but not finished because they simply haven’t captivated me). Rather, it’s because I keep reading - and re-reading - chapter after chapter, finding myself and those I love in the stories, discovering new soundbites, and falling even more in love with the beauty of an imperfect life made perfect by a God who causes all things to work together for His good and His glory. Pete is unafraid to talk about a life that is messy, that doesn’t have all the answers - and about a God who is sovereign in the midst of the mess.


"In this life, many of your questions will simply not have answers. But through it all, God Himself will never change. That is why our faith must rest on His identity and not necessarily His activity."


Plan B reflects on the beauty of disappointment, suffering, surrender and community. It is practical and weighty without being heavy-handed. It will be a book recommended to many, including you. And it will be a book I read - and re-read- over and over again.



27 October 2009

Grace like rain.

It rained today – that soft, steady rain that soaks the ground and fills the lakes. I woke up to the sound of it pattering against the rooftop as if to say “Arise, oh sleeper. I have a story to share with you.” It drew shapes on the glass and blurred everything into a collage of deep green, rich blue and solemn grey. It played its own sweet rhythmic melody. The rain brought healing, hope, inspiration. And it brought something more - a picture of something profoundly precious.

Grace like rain, pours down on me. And all my stains are washed away.


Grace rained down today. Like the steady downpour, grace whispered “You are precious, you are prized, you are beloved.” Like the rain, grace drew shapes of redemption and worth on my heart, and blurred away the scars of rejection and abuse. It brought healing, hope, inspiration.

And grace played a Heavenly melody that, unlike the rain, knows no beginning or no end.

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear, and grace my fears relieved. How precious did that grace appear, the hour I first believed.

Grace, like rain, pour.

13 September 2009

Close your eyes.

They say pictures speak a thousand words.

But when there are no pictures, words will do. And they will do well.

We are in Gautemala - 9 of us, on a journey to minister to babies and children and teenagers and the elderly. Nine of us, all wanting more than anything to glorify God and see Him in each and every moment.

Patrick Lockerman
Courtney Nowakowski
Jim Shields
Stacey Yellen
Christi Uckerek
Ryan Nowakowski
Brynn Paine
Mandy Cortina
and me.

Each of us want to experience the fragrance of the Lord. That sweet, sweet aroma of His hope and salvation. What might that fragrance be like? Perhaps it is

dirt and diesel blended
spice and flowers
baby cream
homemade tortilla soup
focaccia bread
coffee with warm milk
crayons
morning dew
freshly cut grass
tropical fruit
hot waffles
black beans and sour cream
a mountain of candy

Pictures will come soon. For now, savor the fragrances. We are.

30 August 2009

Clear Vision.

Bartimaeus.

Blind. Couldn't hold a job. Lived on the street.

Beggar.

But he could see Hope - even when the crowds around him told him to shut up. He knew where Hope lived, and he reached out.

He kept reaching. And Hope reached back.

The end of the story: Bartimaeus sees.

The crowds are silenced.

10 August 2009

The Beauty of Esperanza

This morning, on a most routine visit to a local coffee shop, I saw hope.

Hope. It’s such a simple word when written down on a piece of paper or typed on to a page. Four little letters, no complexity at all in the pronunciation. Such a simple word with such profound impact.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a dream fulfilled is a tree of life.” Proverbs 13:12

“And His name will be the hope of all the world.” Matthew 12:21

“Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying.” -Romans 12:12

“Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” –Romans 15:13

“Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.” Hebrews 11:1


We hope for the best. We hope to see people we love. We love to hear stories of hope. We are inspired by hope, held up by hope, lifted high by hope. There are times when, as the song by Addison Road says, “everything rides on hope,” - when faith grows faint and hope is all we have.

“We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.” - Romans 5:3-5

Today, as I walked out of the coffee shop to my car, a most gentle breeze swept quietly over me. Almost indiscernible, but it was there – touching the drought-stricken grass and parched trees on another hot August day. Almost indiscernible – except in the sway of the Esperanza flowers in front of me. The clusters of bright yellow trumpets, perched in a sea of dark green unscathed by the heat, moved with the breeze as if playing a tune to welcome it. I sat and watched the graceful motion, enamored by its beauty.

And then I saw it. Hope.

Hope is that gentle breeze that sweeps over us, that moves us. Hope is that quiet nudge that focuses us. Hope embraced opens our eyes to see, to expect.

I want to be Esperanza, welcoming hope in times of providence and in times of drought.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” – Jeremiah 29:11

25 November 2008

Words of wisdom from a man in a sweater.



I have no real profound thoughts today, as I sit in my office in sweats and baseball cap and wonder what road I may ultimately end up walking professionally. I'm still in this amazingly, frighteningly, wonderfully, awkward time of transition - and I have experienced a gamut of emotions along the journey thus far. There's that uplifting rush that comes from imagining a world of possibilities. And there's the dread that comes from imagining hopes dashed. And in the middle, there's this amazing thing called everyday life. There's marriage, and family, and friendships, and prayer. There's laughter and music and reading and cooking. There's freelance jobs and the joy of writing and the launch of a company and the "oh, can I really do this?" followed by the "take a risk." And there is Mr Rogers.

Yes, there's Fred Rogers. You know the man. "Mr Roger's Neighborhood," with Trolley and Ex the Owl, Henrietta Pussycat and Speedy Delivery. Long after I was too old to watch the show, I still tuned in. Because, in our crazy world, he was a voice of kindness. Both on and off the screen, he was a minister. And this morning, his wisdom is just what the doctor ordered. Don’t worry – it’s not what you think. Hope the musings of Mr. Rogers inspire you today too.

"If we're really honest with ourselves, there are probably times when we think, 'What possible use can I be in this world? What need is there for somebody like me to fill?' That's one of the deeper mysteries. Then God's grace comes to us in the form of another person who tells us we have been of help, and what a blessing that is."

"There's a part of all of us that longs to know that even what's weakest about us is still redeemable and can ultimately count for something good."

"One of my seminary professors, Dr Orr, often talked with great poignancy about Henry, a student who had come to the seminary with a degree in classic literature and a fine working knowledge of Greek and Latin as well as several modern languages. He remembered this young man as being brilliant and yet always receiving with such grace the offers of others. 'He never put on airs,' Dr. Orr said. 'You always felt he really respected everybody else.' It seems that this young man wa a perfectionist. For him every word had to be just so. It was excruciating for him to give a sermon unless he felt it was letter-perfect; consequently, it took him two months to write one sermon. Even though he tried hard, it became clear to him that he was not going to be suited for the parish ministry. Eventually, he dropped out of seminary and took a job at a local department store. Dr. Orr didn't hear from him for a long time, so one day, he stopped in the store to see how Henry was faring. It happened to be Henry's day off, but his coworkers talked with Dr. Orr about him. The more they talked, the more Dr. Orr realized that the people at the store knew nothing about this fellow employee's extensive education. What they did know was what had happened in their department after his arrival. 'The department was filled with all kinds of jealousy and pettiness. It was a miserable place to work before Henry came,' a person told Dr. Orr. 'But after he had been here awhile, somehow all of that miserable stuff seemed to disappear. We all got working together, and well, it's different with him here. He's like a minister in more ways than anyone knows. You say you know Henry? Well, you are blessed, too, then.' Dr. Orr finally contacted Henry, and the two of them read Greek literature together for ten years before Henry died. When Dr. Orr talked about him, he would invariably say, 'To think there were people at the seminary - and elsewhere - who called it a waste for Henry to have done what he did, working at that department store.' Then Dr. Orr would add, 'Henry probably had one of the greatest ministries I know. I feel privileged to have been his friend.'"

“’The outside is never as much as the inside…’ As you may know by now, that’s one of the major themes of our work: The invisible essential. Oh, the outsides of life are important, but the insides are what enhance so much of the rest.

“I am glad that I’ve been able to do what I’ve done and not been sidetracked along the way. A teacher of mine calls it guided drift. Isn’t that wonderful? You’re drifting, and yet you’ve got a rudder.”

“I saw a friend who’s a freelance writer and asked him what he was working on. ‘Nothing right now,’ he answered. ‘You know how it is for freelancers. But at times like this I tell myself I’m “between opportunities.” That way I don’t have to feel I’m nowhere.’ There’s often a tendency for us to hurry through transitions. We may feel that these transitions are ‘nowhere at all’ compared to what’s gone on before or what we anticipate is next to come. But you are somewhere…you’re ‘between.’”

“A friend of mine was in a taxi in Washington, D.C., going slowly past the National Archives, when he noticed the words on the cornerstone of the building: ‘The past is prologue.’ He read them out loud to the taxi driver and said, ‘What do you think that means, “the past is prologue”?’ The taxi driver said, ‘I think it means, Man, you ain’t seen nothin’ yet!’”

Thanks Mr. Rogers.